As of lately

As of lately I have been working everyday and going to school so I don't have much of a life, or I do have a life..? However you want to put it. Long story short I don't enjoy it, I find myself missing out on a lot. I can honestly say I have not heard one good thing come from anybody who works at Extra Foods. So anybody out there who has a job offer for me speak up because I wanna get out of that place ASAP! I'm not allergic to work I promise.

Note to self.

Note to self: Trust your instincts, because 99.9% your right. It's almost scary how much I can predict things happening.

DO IT!

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She's my cousins baby and absolutely adorable!

You can't go looking for it.

I got home late last night from hanging out with some guys and found my bed a mess! Stripped sheets and blankets everywhere. Then I was informed that Dallin and Aaron decided to jump on my bed and do who knows what else to mess up my room during my absence. You can't go looking for friends like these. This probably might sound dumb to some but I love these guys, they have always been there for me (even when I'm not around, literally) and strangely coming home to a messed up room because they wanted to make show they were there just puts a smile on my face.

Long after I'm gone

Sometimes talking to no one is the only way of getting over things. I'm really not the type of person that let's people know when I'm having a problem or going through a hard time because I have a hard time explaining myself and from many experience I get the response "Oh it's not that bad" when really it means a lot to me.

I'm currently making some changes in my life. Big ones, minors ones and one thats are hardly noticeable. I've learned that one of the biggest mistake in life is holding on to something that was lost a long time ago. What’s the point of reminiscing when the person is no longer worth it. They're not who they used to be. I feel like the more I tried the less they tried, so why was I putting in the effort if really when it came down to it it was just pushing them away.

One day they will realize how much I was there for them long after I'm gone.

Life's a party.

You don't need a reason to have a party, that's what we did in Bio. Had a party for no reason at all...waffles, whipped cream, raspberries, and chocolate milk. You cannot go wrong there.

There's something about putting a party hat that just puts you in instant party mood. It was just a party kind of day, and it didn't end when we took the hats off. It was a good day all around. Maybe I should wear a party hat every day...?

This makes me laugh.

Life is either a daring adventure or nothing.

Okay so I didn't exactly go on a HUGE adventure today, but I did do something that I love to do. Going for something I want.  I woke up this morning and noticed how nice it was outside, looked out the window and saw a gopher staring back at me. After that I had my mind set, I wanted to go gopher hunting. In Bio we spent about 10 minutes trying to convince Janisko to take our whole class gopher hunting. Yaa...It didn't sound as brilliant out loud. Then I spent the rest of the day reminiscing with others about our gopher hunting adventures together. Long story short, after school me, Mackenzie and Daniel loaded up in the truck and made out way to meet Retzer to go gopher hunting. I'll tell ya it was a blast, the sun felt great on my face. Even though it was only 7 degrees. But hey we've been hibernating all winter any bit of sun feels great!

Whaaaat?!

Jeremy Prince told me something very inspiring today "Expect the worst and hope for the best, that way you will never be caught off guard." Wow was he ever right, some people surprise you. Just when you think you know their next move and know where things are going. Speechless. That's what I am right now. So I'm going to leave this post at that.

A wonderful treat.

I went into work today, went to sign in and it said I wasn't scheduled. So I checked the schedule, I went from working a ton this week to not at all. Hm...What to do now?

Speak louder than words

I'm finding it hard to put into words my feelings about this weekend. So I'll do this, no sentences just words.

This weekend I felt:
Excited
Nervous
Happy
Healthy 
Disgusted
Angry 
Bitter
Loud
Sore
Confident 


I tried so hard this weekend not to be bitter or angry but we all know basketball games can do that to you but that wasn't the part that got to me. I was over it faster than it came. It was a certain situation that keeps replaying in my head. One that answered a question I've been asking myself forever. I know who my real friends are,
they are the ones that are completely honest with me,
the ones that are themselves no matter who they're with,
the ones that aren't ashamed of who they are.
Actions speak louder than words, we all know that cliche.
When do you decide that enough is enough and you just need to get that person out of your life before they cause anymore emotional damage to you. They may say they don't do it on purpose but when it comes down to it they ARE doing it.
Sometimes the way to learn something is to live through it, and I have learnt a lot.

So I ask one thing...don't say sorry because I'm hurt, say sorry because your hurt.

Overall I think I did a pretty excellent job of letting anything get to me, I had a fun weekend. I would do it all over. I would scream until I lost my voice again, I would watch so many basketball games that it gave me a headache all over. Because I had my real friends with me by my side making every moment one to remember. It's been 4 years of watching zones with these guys, 4 years of them by my side. I'm not ashamed to say I love them. They mean the world to me, heck with them I'm in my own world.

Hm...why?

I can go without my phone for days, and I usually do. People get frustrated with me because I won't text them back when really I haven't even gotten their message cause I just don't have my phone on me. I'm in school, everyone I need/want to talk to is right there. Afterwards I really have nothing to talk about.
So the question is, why is it I'm just itching to grab my phone and check my messages this week? For this weeks bio challenge it's no cell phones. Just in time for zones, but it's not even the weekend yet so I still have no reason to use my phone. WHY AM I BEING SO TEMPTED!? I guess it's a good thing it's been on my mind a lot this week, so I can fight it. I'm already almost half way done this weeks challenge. Just a little bit longer!

It's your turn

You tell me one thing, something that draws me and makes me believe that we're close but then you show me the complete opposite. I'm not chasing you, tracking you down. It's your turn. You want to show me you care, you show me. I'm not wasting my time being sad about it, it's your turn to make an effort.

This Week.

Let's just say this week could not start off any better, but when Cardston kicks Raymond's butt like that who can honestly walk away without a smile? Oh wait...Raymond? Okay I won't start trash talking.

But really, I love seeing my closest friends play as hard as they can and cheering them on. It never gets old, for me at least.

I'm determined to have a good week, even though the bio challenge has forced me to lock my cellphone and ipod up. Nothing is stopping me I'm having a good week.

Not quiet over it yet

This year has been different for me, usually I'm crazy about basketball season, I'm at every game and just loving it. Well this year for some reason football was my love, and I just couldn't get into basketball. Until now. The second last game of the season and I decided to fall in love with it again.

Last night was in my opinion the best game of the season, why?...well
It was intense 
We had amazing fans
Our boys did amazing, they played their hearts out
We actually sang the school song
and of coarse...WE WON!

I had to work yesterday and I was so sure I was only going to make it to the third or fourth quarter but to my surprise I only missed 30 seconds of the whole game! I don't think the excitement in the crowd is something I write about, it's just something you had to witness yourself. It made me proud to be a Cougar

 Zones is next week and I'm not missing a game. It's going to be good. So I advise all you Cardston Cougar fans to make your way to all the games. I have to give the players a lot of credit, they have worked hard to get where they are. As Aaron would say..."Hey congrats!"

It's simple.

These last couple of days have been fantastic! Why? It's simple...it's because I told myself they would be.

The end is near!

When I got surgery on my knee, I was convinced I'd be up and walking within a few days until the surgery actually happened and I found out it was a 6 week healing process. Ever since then I've been counting the weeks. Tomorrow will be one month since, I am walking of coarse now and the massive limp is gone (unless I've been working my knee to much in one day). Overall I feel great, not 100% quiet yet but give it 2 more weeks and I'll be as good as new.
I went to work for the first time since my surgery yesterday and to be honest it felt like nothing changed, the surgery never happened, I never took a medical leave at work. I was right back at it. Until a few hours pasted and my knee was telling me TOO MUCH! That's when they sent me home...

I have my last appointment with my knee specialist tomorrow morning and hopefully I'll be all done with the doctors and hospital thing. Assuming I won't go back to my accident prone self.